Guatemala City:
after a storm
shine your light
A few weeks ago, after I returned from the coast, my family blessed me with a trip to El Salvador for 3 days. They took me to what I believe is one of the nicest resorts in the area. The DeCameron is an all inclusive resort with more than enough food for anyone, beautiful pools and much entertainment.
My wonderful aunts, uncles, and grandparents :)
My emotions were all over the place on this trip. Homesickness was still lingering pretty heavily and let's just say I was the only one under 4o in our group. (nothing against older people at all...I have many "old" friends ;) I just had one strong thought that I could not seem to work out. A realization of where I was and ultimately what I came here to do. An experience of commercialism and consumerism surrounding me when my heart was in a completely different place.
I still can't seem to put these feelings into words.
it's ok to enjoy and have nice things, right?
I was sharing time with my family.
I guess what I was experiencing was not feeling fulfilled...
I have to be honest, who would not want to be relaxing poolside enjoying an umbrella drink?
I would.
I have a place in my heart that is so raw right now that I want it to be filled with truth and authenticity. I want to be a part of things that are making a difference. I want to be conformed to the image of Christ for the sake of others.
yeah...
I don't know. ask me. tell me. lead me.
Lean in, Jackie. This rawness is a gift. Thanks for the good update.
ReplyDeleteJackie, I so know how you're feeling. I understand the yearning of your heart to do something worthwhile. How awesome that you have that yearning at such a young age.
ReplyDeleteI too yearn to do something worthwhile. While I have two opportunities for travel - one to go lay on the beach in Hawaii at my girlfriend's million dollar condo or two, to go to Malawi and work in orphanages and see the work firsthand of World Hope Corp. I choose Malawi.
Your good work is awaiting....
Your heart is beautiful!